My feelings are numbed. I never thought our conversation was the last. I look every morning for your emails no more will they ever appear.

The shock of your passing, the huge energy which now surrounds me is the brilliance of your Soul, the strength knocked me out for a few days. I miss the contact which I thought was real and yet now we speak more freely as you can see all that has passed before me.

You were the one who understood me without judgement. You and I were so similar in our ways, sharp analysis we both possessed. You now believe in my diagnosis and remedies. You are shocked at seeing my true world. Disgust for our families. I have no more to say about them, I have had enough.